glad

This morning I woke up, and really did not want to go to the gym. I was doing the typical " I'll make sure to work out tomorrow, and work extra hard and long to make up for today." But I decided that I was going to go to the gym today because that attitude is how I fall back into the same old routine of only going to the gym like once a month. I am glad that I did not let myself shrug it off like it was no big deal. I is a HUGE deal. I have to stay strong. Working out is not nearly as much fun as shopping, or sleeping for that matter, but I have to stick with it. I have to lose weight, and in order to do that I HAVE to go to the gym on a very regular basis. Willpower comes and goes, but unless I continue going to the gym, the weight will not come and go, it will just stay, like an unwelcome guest.
Something funny I saw online- "Excess fat, you have two options. Make your way to my boobs or GTFO"
:)
Have a good night
Erin K.

Finally back in the groove

Well I finally started going back to the gym. I finally feel like I am getting into a routine again, thankfully. I was afraid I was going to fall back into the same old habits of finding excuses to not go. But I have been going, and am starting to enjoy it again. I defiantly enjoy going with a friend or my husband, but even without someone to go with, I am still going. Its a good feeling :)

work out with a friend

Today I worked out with my best friend. It was great, not only did we get to catch up and talk, but it didn't even feel like I was working out. It was great. Defiantly need to do that more often. I think more work outs like that, and I will get back to liking working out.  :)
~Erin K~

Back to it!

I went to the gym tonight for the first time in a long time. I few weeks ago, I got the flu. That lasted about a week. Then it turned into a cold. But I finally feel better. Good enough to work out again. It sucks though. I had just gotten to the point where I was really enjoying going to the gym and the feeling a good workout gave me. Now it feel like I am back at square one... Ugh
I just have to get back to it. Make it a habit again. Tonight I worked out for an hour. Not as hard as I normally would, but I will get back to that. I have to. I can not let this happen again. I need to lose weight, and be healthy.  It is too easy to say, "oh I will go tomorrow". I just need to push and keep at it. Even though at this moment, I really don't want to. But I have to remember my long term goals and keep focused on that.
Just wanted to update everyone, and let you know that I have not given up.
~Erin K~

consistance

Just got back from the gym. I really didn't want to go tonight, but after eating a very unhealthy dinner, I NEEDED to go! I am beat! Caleb hasn't been going with me the past couple of days because he has been working overtime, and he thinks he pulled something in his back. The old me would have used him not going as an excuse not to go either, but not any more. I have to keep a routine going, or else I will fall off the wagon like I have done so many times before. I need to start eating healthier though. Still not losing anything. I saw a quote online that said you can't outwork a bad diet. I know that losing weight is both working out and eating healthier, and honestly I thought working out was going to be the hard part....but food is so damned good...WHY!? lol
I wish vegetables tasted like...chips or cookies...that would be awesome. >.< Oh well. I will get there, just need to make better choices.
Have a good night all
Erin K.

Great workout

Caleb and I worked out today, and it was great. It was our longest work out yet. 30 minutes on the arc trainer and 35 on the elliptical. After I was weak(in a good way) but felt great! And after my heart rate fully went down, I felt even better, and had energy : ) Such a great feeling! And to think I didn't want to go today. I'm looking forward to this feeling more often. The only bummer is that I have not lost ANY weight....ugh that is frustrating! But at least I am feeling good after workouts right?
Have a good day
Erin K.

Motivation

Caleb and I had a good work out tonight and I am feeling great. 35 minutes on the elliptical, and another 15 on this arc machine. It was a pretty good work out, and the best part other than working out with my husband was a random lady came up to me and said that she was impressed with how long I was on the elliptical and that she thinks its really difficult and to keep up the good work. That boosted my confidence and gave me motivation. *Thank you random lady :)*
Any ways, just wanted to share that. If you are in a gym and see someone working hard that looks like they are still a beginner, let them know they are doing a good job, it will help them out a lot!
Have a good night everyone.
Erin K.

Feeling good

I woke up this morning and just wanted to stay in bed. I got to sleep in which was needed. The past few days have either been busy, or me not feeling good. So I have not been able to go to the gym like I was hoping I would for the past week. Not a good start to the year. But I told myself that I needed to go to the gym. I think I worked out twice last week. But Caleb works on Sundays and I figured today would be a great time to go to the gym without him. He will be working overtime today so I know he will not want to go tonight. I must say, that I am very glad I went. I had a great workout. I can't wait until I get to the point where I can workout harder :) I am looking forward to that! SO my goal for this upcoming week is to workout on Monday night, Tuesday, Wednesday( since I get off work early that day) and Sunday again. Lets hope I can stick to that and feel well enough to do it :)
And here is a quote I saw online that I think is Very motivational
"If its worth having, you will find a way, if not you will find an excuse"
Have a great day everyone :-)
Erin K.

Time for a change!

I have been overweight my entire life. I am always hard on myself, but never am willing to make a change. I have to! There are so many things that I want to change about my body, life, self esteem and overall health. I want to give my amazing husband babies, and I want to be healthy enough to do that. It's the start of a new year, and we all know that we start out all gung-ho in the beginning of the year. We all feel likes its a new beginning given to us to change ourselves. But before we know it, a month has past and we have forgotten about our resolutions and are back in the same old rut. I do not want that to happen to me again! I want to change, not for a week, or two but forever. I WANT TO BE ADDICTED TO EXERCISE! I want to get to the point where exercising is a part of my life. I want to get to the point where if I miss a day, I feel guilty and grumpy. I need to commit to not just a resolution but a lifestyle change! I have made a goal for myself to lose 50 pounds by the end of the year. That is not my full goal, but I feel that is a very realistic goal to start with. I want to lose a total of 130 pounds all together, but that is my Long term goal. I will get there! Caleb(my husband) and I joined a gym that is only about 5 minutes away from our home, and we plan on going TOGETHER at least 3 times a week. We also plan to do yoga a few times a week as well. I am creating this blog to keep me accountable. I want this to be a place that I can come and spill my heart out and get support so I can keep moving forward with this goal and not forget about it and push it onto the back burner.
More post to come :)